6 years old diary.

i remember that i’ve waited for you to pick me back home at the veranda. wearing a dress i used to love.

I remember how the next day, a friend who had a crush on me long before we together said “you look great last night..”

until now, i always set my eyes to every places that we’ve been there before..

it’s raining that day, so we decided to stop over at CK. bought cigarettes and stuff. 

i set my hand to the rain and then you followed. did you know? i stared at you in a desperate moment..when my brain said no and my heart said “could we go back together?”

i’ve lost interest at you. i fell out of love for you. i hate you.

but i always set my eyes to that veranda.

i remember how i feel humiliated when you said we weren’t good anymore through your cellphone.

i remember how my heart hurt so much when our eyes met while you were holding her hands…because it’s over.

i don’t wanna go back to you. i don’t wanna know more about you. i hate you.

but i always set my eyes to the past.

“비가 내리고 음악이 흐르면 난 당신을 생각해요…”